appointment letter

i got my new appointment/assignment letter...

WBS II

** sigh ** well nothing much today...
i spent the whole day in a 2 hours meeting...
and 6 hours making WBS(Work Breakdown Schedule)...
it was exhausting...

but i got a break when the Nihongo sensei ask for my help...
they want to borrow my laptop for a Jdorama(Japanese Drama) showing...
at first they ask me to save a copy of the movie in my HD(Hard disk)...
then test it with a projector and the component...
well it sure eat some of my time...
but it doesn't matter though...
we had lunch while watching the movie..
its a good timing to finish 1 episode when the clock hits 1 pm...
time to work then...

so the braincells tweeking and energy burning makes thinking hurt a lot...
** sigh **

WBS (Work Breakdown Schedule)

my second day seems to be less tough compared yesterday...
still no clear direction on what i'm goind to do...
but nonetheless, i'm trying to figure it out...
i just did what i can do and think of...
i talked to some people whom i think can help me...
i interviewed some engineers who were expert on their specific field...
had a brainstorming with my partner...
but in the end...
it's good to assumed something...
but sometimes assuming leads to missing something...
i forgot to review the WBS... waaaaaaaaaaaahhh....
i'm dead again! oh well...
i think that's what life is all about...
it SUCKS! =)

p.s.
i was able to watch this Jdorama (Japanese Drama) entitled Densha Otoko (The Train Man)... it was funny.. and cool...
i've learned another Japanese term -- Otaku!
i'm still on episode 3 where the Otaku had a second dinner date with Hermes-san.

new assignment, new challenge

it's been a while since i'd updated this blog o mine...

i had been preoccupied with my work such that i tend to forget to post blogs here...jaa...

i'm in makati now... it's my first day of work... and guess what job they had gave me...????

for 6 hours i had to make a complete plan for the 5 months training of ACTION 6....

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh... (i still got no good background about ACTION... how the hell would i do it??) i was a bit shock! .. i never expected to burn my brain cells on the first day of work... and the same old feeling came( trying to do something which you don't know what to do... what can you do if you had no idea about it? or even a hint? nah.. guess i'm on my own now... MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING!) wakekekekekek

Also i had to make some adjustment on myself just to adopt to the new place, new faces and new boss... but i guess it's not important here anymore.. so i just did why my boss told me...

i started at 8:00 am and first checkpoint was at 11:30....

darn! guessed im just an average guy in town...my boss kinda find a lot of bugs in my plan...

so he give another try to finish it by 2:00 in the afternoon.. so i did.. i just ate my lunch on my table.. finish it quick while staring on the monitor of my laptop... (who said you can't do two things at a time???) and so after a glass of water... i start pounding my brains... forcing it to think of bright ideas... i was thinking very hard... (IT HURTS!) and when the time comes.... =( again... still have bugs on it... and so by the end of the day he check it again... and at long last... i got what he wants.. ( a little bit of it though... hehehehehe) ... i was exhausted and very tired.. i want to go home, eat lots of food ... take a shower and hit the bed... (off to go home...)

the matrix

i decided to go home early last night coz i feel a bit tired and lazy... i feel of doing something aside work.. so when i got home i prepare my food.. cook rice and some viand while playing R & B music from my Dell laptop... after 30 minutes i took a shower for a while and devour my prey(food i prepared) after i get dressed up.. then i played WARCRAFT - FROZEN THRONE specifically the DOTA map... after a while i feel like watching movies so i pull some DVD in my friend's collections... luckily i pull out The Matrix (as the title of this blog)... here are some of the philosophical conversations i had F2(save) in my CPU(brain). It's quite long.. ehehehe

"Why Mr. Anderson? Why? Why? Why do you do it?

Why? Why get up?

Why keep fighting?

You believe you're fighting for something? For more than your survival?

Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know?

Is it FREEDOM or TRUTH? Perhaps PEACE? Could it be for LOVE?

Delusions Mr. Anderson, vagaries and perceptions, temporary constructs of a

feable human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without

meaning or purpose. And all of them are artificial as the MATRIX itself.

Although only a human mind can invent something as LOVE.

You must be able to see it Mr. Anderson, you must know it by now.

You can't win, it's pointless to keep fighting.

Why Mr. Anderson? Why? Why? Why do you persist?!"

'Because i choose to.'

This is my WORLD!, my WORLD!

"Wait, I've seen this.

This is it, this is the END.

Yes! You were laying right there.

Just like that, I, I, I stand here, right here.

I was suppose to say something.

I say - Everything that has BEGINNING has an END Neo. -

What? What I'd just say? No! No! This isn't right!

This can't be right! Get away from me!"

'What are you AFRAID of?'

"It's a trick!"

'You were RIGHT smith. You were always RIGHT.

It was INEVITABLE!.'

"Is it over? Oh NO!, NO! That's not FAIR!"

-Do you always know?-

:: No, No, I didn't. But I BELIEVE, I BELIEVE. ::

hehehe guess i absorbed it too much. ehehehehe

Wind (Naruto ending song...)

im an avid fan of the Anime Naruto and one of it's ending song seems to have some sense, especially when relating it to real life... eheheheh

Wind

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

sleepy monday

Just another sleepy Monday

If you have a job, Mondays are probably manic, full of work that should have been done and the regret of everything you planned to do over the weekend but didn't because of the hangover.

When you're unemployed and barely puttering along with what you're writing, Mondays are a good day to sleep until noon and pretend that everything will fall into place when you open your eyes again. The thing is, though, that this bizarre season of waking up super early every day leaves me feeling half-drunk and completely useless if I wake up at noon to find that I slept through a dozen alarms and both roommates knocking at my door. Today is a little melancholy anyway, because only a few of my friends remember my birthday and i miss my mom, i miss home.

While I didn't do everything that I wanted to do during the weekend, I still had a great time and I don't want to root on it. I was thinking of my job here, holy crap! i got two months left. As far back as I can remember, there would be no trainees this November and that simply implies that i'll be of no use anymore (had to find a job dude). Could it be that only a few graduated on October or there's just no way for me to shift to another expertise? Wow! That really makes me sad. That's really surprising, although perhaps it explains why I'm always day dreaming about getting a job abroad or someplace else with high salary and nice colleagues and driving off into the sunset. Who knew?

making friends

A conversation from The Little Prince.

No," said the little prince.

"I am looking for friends. What does that mean, 'tame'?"

"It is an act too often neglected," said the fox. It means to establish ties."

"'To establish ties'?"

"Just that," said the fox. "To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world..."

Chapter 21 of The Little Prince

realizations 101

let me borrow what Mr. Rex Resurrection tells about excellence.

-- "In the race towards excellence, there is no finish line."

I believe that if a person or organization is not driven with a passion for excellence, that person or organization will surely be run over by time and change. The world today is as competitive as never before. It is survival of the fittest out there. Any person or concerned about his professional future must realize this. Individuals as well as organizations are fiercely waging a battle against each other for top positions. Today, each person is faced with a hard decision - is he going to remain relevant and in the running or will be be pushed to the wayside? To avoid painful obsolescence, he must strive for professional excellence.

payday - feast

today is a payday... too touched with the cakes and gift my trainees and colleagues had given me... i kept on thinking what would i can give them in return... probably a little snack would suffice... that's why i was hoping that our pay would be given... i've check my atm in the mornig.. taking a chance if it was deposited already... damn... what appears in my account was 8.88 .... waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh.... well i didn't lost hope.. its only the start of the day... maybe it will be given in the afternoon... i've decided already to have a simple snack, a "pansit", bread and "ngoyong" and drinks would be enough.. so i ask the aid of our admin... maam jenny to help me with it... and luckily she's so very helpful.. i got no problems of running some errands... where to buy those food i've mentioned... it's all been taken cared of... ehehehe so i checked my account again.. and ... to my surprise... i had my pay for the month.. this call for a celebration... ehehehehehe so i gave maam jenny some money for the food.. and we feast on it after the technical paper contest... thanks GOD. ehehehehe

lesson for the day:

Be thankful enough in everything that you had and everything that you received.

my BIG DAY (birthday)

july 21, 2005

the big day. it's my BIRTHDAY! damn! im 1 year more older... guess i had to stop counting my age, or shall i reverse the counting so that i would become 1 year younger every year? (hmmmm.. good idea!)..Thursday.. not a payday.. and what's left in my wallet was a 100 pesos.. and don't forget my 50 pesos in my pocket. I woke up early, the usual time i woke up - 6 AM. my roommate greeted me while im preparing my stuff for work and he's half-asleep and still in bed, so000 lazy to hit the shower. so my journey begins.. for another hard-woking day..i had my breakfast at the "turo-turo/karenderya" (point-point - food haus).. and had a banana for dessert..when the short hand of the wallclock points to the number 8 and the long hand tangent to 12... welcome to the new world... WORK WORK WORK WORLD.colleagues who passed by the bulletin board and had a glimpse of the Birthday Corner would then greet Happy Natal Day with a cute grin. so in return i just answer.. "thank you" (with a cute grin also)...i prepare my stuff, had finalized my weekly report and had a class at 10:15..lunch time.. luckily my BOSS treated me in an expensive eat all you can restaurant- The Grand Majestic(did i remember it correctly??) - hehehe sounds expensive huh? well i had a good lunch.. food were so oishi and the shiomai.. yummy.. my favorite..( i wont describe the details of what we ate and how it taste.. i would be drooling here.. ehehhe)back to the office... back to the normal mode.. work mode..at three PM a meeting... weekly meeting... it took us an hour..and the most exciting and surprising part of the my day was when my ACTION Trainees bought a CAKE for me and some drinks... at first they ask me to get inside the training room for some clarifications.. when i got in, they started singing the Happy Birthday song.. and i didn't notice the food they had prepared for me .. they got a cake with my name on it... and what more was my colleagues in the workplace bought a present for me..ow.. they were so sweet and thoughtful.. i never knew them that much but they had made my day wonderful..i was happy. yes i was.. who wouldn't be? ehehehhe working time is over.. but i stayed for a while to finish some stuff... and an hour after i went home..and i had a can of beer with my roommate... a small talk.. while listening to some music.. and after a while i hit the bed... zzzzzzzzzzz......THANKS GOD!

a day before my birthday

July 20, 2005, I had a very busy day... i had to prepare my slide for the class.. i got up so early and headed for work where i took my breakfast ( the usual rice, hotdogs/ham/beef loaf and egg).

damn! my notes doesn't work.. my password has expired... mails were coming in and i got no idea what were those might be.. an urgent and very important report is needed? a call for a meeting? etc.. and im right my other boss needed a summary report ASAP. i had to fix things up and battled with my reports for two hours... wow! what more was that after i had submitted my report... my colleagues call for very important meeting.. waaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.. im dead! so i had to run over to the conference room and kill some time discussing some stuff... had prepare an exam... and administer them afterwards... my was concluded with a come back to my favorite Online RP Games - Ragnarok Online... (it was free ehehehehe.. i had not played RO since i transfer here in Cebu, Philippines for a better work. damn! i miss a lot of it)... i forgot to have dinner.. so i got home and cooked.. eheheh it was past 10:30 already damn! im so hungry... but while waiting for my food, me and my friend watch BLEACH (very good ANIME.. ehehhe).. until i had to eat and wash-up and hit the bed.... it was 10 minutes before my Big Day.

talking mind

Recently my MIND talks, and it suddenly take control of my hands, and my fingers just click on farrahs avatar and start typing what it want to say:

areman: genki desu ka
farrahbabe08: huh?
areman: it's not updated... ur blogs..
farrahbabe08: ah..
farrahbabe08: na busy ko sa work
areman: i tot the there's no busy word in your vocabulary??
areman: funny.. you've been bzzzz...
areman: ??????? how come???
areman: in my world things were always bzzz...
areman: i only got a sukushi time do my stuff..
areman: in your world you've got the luxury of time..
areman: you can do what you want to do ..
areman: u can eat.. play.. sleep.. and work..
areman: you were never bounded by the time which we follow to guide our everyday activities..
areman: what for is time??
areman: what was it's purpose..
areman: purpose???? hmmmm...
areman: they say everything has a purpose on this earth..
areman: most of the wises men i knew believes in it..
areman: i just dont know if they knew their purpose...
areman: hmm... they were talking of ones purpose... telling others that this is your purpose in life so you should do this and do that...
areman: how did they know a person's purpose? were they the one who set it up??
areman: or were they just pretending to knew it and dictating one's persons life to follow a path that is not in conformity with the persons own longings??
areman: how did this happen??
areman: in my planet.. these were just fleeting things that doesn't matter at all...
areman: heheh.. na i just don't think of it.. but sometimes our minds just work on its own, doing amazing and unusual things.. which the person sometimes cannot comprehend...
farrahbabe08: are u ok?
areman: definitely that's one mystery of a person's fucking damn shit mind...
farrahbabe08: hehehe
farrahbabe08: sometimes sucking the marrow of life does makes it seem more confusing
areman: it's unbelievable that it could generate a lot of energy that further leads to discovery of new ideas and understanding that sometimes conformed with the society and most of the times complicates things which were doing fine in the course of the time they were living..
areman: am i talking nonsense here?? is it me or just my mind talking??
farrahbabe08: i dont know..
areman: my mind talks?? how come?? does it has a mouth??
areman: does it has the tounge to utter things which should not be uttered??
areman: im the one in control here!
areman: and why does it orders my fingers to type what it wants to say??
areman: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
areman: im not in control of myself......
areman: help..
areman: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh
farrahbabe08: are u sure ok ra ka?
areman: stop it fingers ... stop it..
areman: damn! it wont stop...
farrahbabe08: wala ka nakadrugs?
areman: ehehhe... it's my fingers...
areman: i want to stop it but my mind is controlling it...
areman: hai!
areman: <----- loser!
areman: ehehe..
areman: hi ping!
areman: it's me... talyo..
areman: it's my mind who was talking to you kanina..
areman: finally i was able to subdue it.. ehehhe
areman: musta na po kayo??
areman: got a sexy pix there ha??
areman: bzzz???
areman: oh.. my mind is right... your place is new to the word 'bz'..
areman: that's why you keep yourself bzz...
areman: oh well.. had to work also.. my time is up..
areman: tnx for listening...
areman: honto arigatou!
areman: ki o tsukete kudasai!
farrahbabe08's status is now "Available". (7/19/2005 2:55 PM)

all are new

everything is new to me here... new place means new environment and new people and new culture to learn and adopt... new job, new working place, new boss and new colleague... hope i will be alright here...this also means a new life to me... new and additional life learnings...

the greener pasture

it just come to a point that i feel dumb... for 5 years working here, growth is too slow... i realized that i have mostly wasted my 6 years here for not so much learnings... i feel stagnate, stunted! thus probably i need to move on...

~hopeless romantic~

"Hopeless Romantic"

Well I've seen trough the eyes of others And I not that good with my x lovers Talk it down 'n' trough and through What should I do I asked your friend When I'm eating with you I'm an utter disgrace Coz I get more food on my face Proposed to you with a diamond ring I Managed to drop it down the bleeding sink I'm just a hopeless romantic sorry for wasting your time I'm just a hopeless romantic sorry for wasting your time sorry for wasting your time well every one has always said that deep, deep down our love is a crime all the people always say that deep deep down it's the same old lines all your friends said take a chance but you haven't yet seen me dance if you love me just this once be your hopeless romantic given a chance I'm just a hopeless romantic sorry for wasting your timeI'm just a hopeless romantic sorry for wasting your timesorry for wasting your time...sorry for wasting your time...

usual lines

----:: ~ ::----

i'm not worthy for your love...

you deserve someone better than me...

i feel inferior to you because of your achievements...

i feel that we are not meant for each other...

i'm just a nobody and your a somebody...

i'm not the girl for you...

----:: ~ ::----

???

A.K.A. (Almost_Kinda_Alternative)

here is a list of Alternative Songs i like. It was burned by my cute friend missy and given to me as a gift.( thanks grace!) hope you like the songs...

My Immortal - Evanescence
Miss You Love - SilverChair
Balisong - Rivermaya
This Side - Nickel Creek
I'll be - Edwin McCain
Lovesong - 311
Amber - 311
Every Little Thing - Dishwalla
Come Around - Rhett Miller
Sweetest Goodbye - Maroon 5
Half Life - Duncan Sheik
Home -Dishwalla
Angels or Devils - Dishwalla
She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik
I Think God Can Explain - Splender
The Reason - Hoobastank
Here Without You -3 Doors Down
How Your Remind Me - Nickelback

cupid's corner

CUPID said:

The more connections you and your lover make,
not just between your bodies,
but between your MINDS, your HEARTS and your SOULS,
the more you will strengthen the fabric of your relationship,
and the more real moments you will experience together.

hmmm... this is a good advice for lovers out there... but for me?? nah...
[hope angel would allow me to make connections with her =)]

PIX MaKeOvEr =)

Warning! Don't Post Your Pix On The Net Or Else....

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