im a failure

today was my 2nd failure for this year... the 1st one was last february 21...(please refer to my previous post)... i failed in an exam which would somehow be my next level-up and a step higher in the ladder of success...but i guess life without failure is boring...hahahha... but i can't stop think ing that it would be better if there were no failures... if i had passed the exam.... if i had been promoted... life would be great for me... more success at the start of the year is a good start and the feeling would be the best... but i guess im not that intelligent enough or the best, for me to passed all the exams i took... i'm not the achiever type..i'm not the aggresive type...i am just an average guy... well probably it was all my fault.... i seem to deny that i can do better than what i am doing now... that i had some potential but i opt not to fully maximize it and just be contented of what i am and what i have now... even though people around me were trying to push me hard to my limit and even beyond it... they were expecting much from me...but i guess i let them down...probably they were disappointed or had lost confidence in me...thus here i am feeling a little guilt and regrets.... i should have tried to do it... and probably i had harvest what i had planted... i should have studied hard to get a high score or near the passing score or just by luck i had passed the exam... i had let opportunities to slipped from my own hand...i should have grabbed it and hold on to it...i felt like a loser...which i am now...oh well... these are always a lessons learned... but it will only be a lessons learned if had made an action plan for it and had acted upon it... guess i have an additional item for my list of goals this year... to get promoted and passed the JLPT L2 exam... goodluck to me!