Wind (Naruto ending song...)


im an avid fan of the Anime Naruto and one of it's ending song seems to have some sense, especially when relating it to real life... eheheheh


Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

sleepy monday


Just another sleepy Monday

If you have a job, Mondays are probably manic, full of work that should have been done and the regret of everything you planned to do over the weekend but didn't because of the hangover.

When you're unemployed and barely puttering along with what you're writing, Mondays are a good day to sleep until noon and pretend that everything will fall into place when you open your eyes again. The thing is, though, that this bizarre season of waking up super early every day leaves me feeling half-drunk and completely useless if I wake up at noon to find that I slept through a dozen alarms and both roommates knocking at my door. Today is a little melancholy anyway, because only a few of my friends remember my birthday and i miss my mom, i miss home.

While I didn't do everything that I wanted to do during the weekend, I still had a great time and I don't want to root on it. I was thinking of my job here, holy crap! i got two months left. As far back as I can remember, there would be no trainees this November and that simply implies that i'll be of no use anymore (had to find a job dude). Could it be that only a few graduated on October or there's just no way for me to shift to another expertise? Wow! That really makes me sad. That's really surprising, although perhaps it explains why I'm always day dreaming about getting a job abroad or someplace else with high salary and nice colleagues and driving off into the sunset. Who knew?

making friends


A conversation from The Little Prince.

No," said the little prince.

"I am looking for friends. What does that mean, 'tame'?"

"It is an act too often neglected," said the fox. It means to establish ties."
"'To establish ties'?"

"Just that," said the fox. "To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world..."

Chapter 21 of The Little Prince

realizations 101


let me borrow what Mr. Rex Resurrection tells about excellence.
-- "In the race towards excellence, there is no finish line."
I believe that if a person or organization is not driven with a passion for excellence, that person or organization will surely be run over by time and change. The world today is as competitive as never before. It is survival of the fittest out there. Any person or concerned about his professional future must realize this. Individuals as well as organizations are fiercely waging a battle against each other for top positions. Today, each person is faced with a hard decision - is he going to remain relevant and in the running or will be be pushed to the wayside? To avoid painful obsolescence, he must strive for professional excellence.

payday - feast


today is a payday... too touched with the cakes and gift my trainees and colleagues had given me... i kept on thinking what would i can give them in return... probably a little snack would suffice... that's why i was hoping that our pay would be given... i've check my atm in the mornig.. taking a chance if it was deposited already... damn... what appears in my account was 8.88 .... waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh.... well i didn't lost hope.. its only the start of the day... maybe it will be given in the afternoon... i've decided already to have a simple snack, a "pansit", bread and "ngoyong" and drinks would be enough.. so i ask the aid of our admin... maam jenny to help me with it... and luckily she's so very helpful.. i got no problems of running some errands... where to buy those food i've mentioned... it's all been taken cared of... ehehehe so i checked my account again.. and ... to my surprise... i had my pay for the month.. this call for a celebration... ehehehehehe so i gave maam jenny some money for the food.. and we feast on it after the technical paper contest... thanks GOD. ehehehehe
lesson for the day:
Be thankful enough in everything that you had and everything that you received.

my BIG DAY (birthday)


july 21, 2005

the big day. it's my BIRTHDAY! damn! im 1 year more older... guess i had to stop counting my age, or shall i reverse the counting so that i would become 1 year younger every year? (hmmmm.. good idea!)..Thursday.. not a payday.. and what's left in my wallet was a 100 pesos.. and don't forget my 50 pesos in my pocket. I woke up early, the usual time i woke up - 6 AM. my roommate greeted me while im preparing my stuff for work and he's half-asleep and still in bed, so000 lazy to hit the shower. so my journey begins.. for another hard-woking day..i had my breakfast at the "turo-turo/karenderya" (point-point - food haus).. and had a banana for dessert..when the short hand of the wallclock points to the number 8 and the long hand tangent to 12... welcome to the new world... WORK WORK WORK WORLD.colleagues who passed by the bulletin board and had a glimpse of the Birthday Corner would then greet Happy Natal Day with a cute grin. so in return i just answer.. "thank you" (with a cute grin also)...i prepare my stuff, had finalized my weekly report and had a class at 10:15..lunch time.. luckily my BOSS treated me in an expensive eat all you can restaurant- The Grand Majestic(did i remember it correctly??) - hehehe sounds expensive huh? well i had a good lunch.. food were so oishi and the shiomai.. yummy.. my favorite..( i wont describe the details of what we ate and how it taste.. i would be drooling here.. ehehhe)back to the office... back to the normal mode.. work three PM a meeting... weekly meeting... it took us an hour..and the most exciting and surprising part of the my day was when my ACTION Trainees bought a CAKE for me and some drinks... at first they ask me to get inside the training room for some clarifications.. when i got in, they started singing the Happy Birthday song.. and i didn't notice the food they had prepared for me .. they got a cake with my name on it... and what more was my colleagues in the workplace bought a present for me..ow.. they were so sweet and thoughtful.. i never knew them that much but they had made my day wonderful..i was happy. yes i was.. who wouldn't be? ehehehhe working time is over.. but i stayed for a while to finish some stuff... and an hour after i went home..and i had a can of beer with my roommate... a small talk.. while listening to some music.. and after a while i hit the bed... zzzzzzzzzzz......THANKS GOD!

a day before my birthday


July 20, 2005, I had a very busy day... i had to prepare my slide for the class.. i got up so early and headed for work where i took my breakfast ( the usual rice, hotdogs/ham/beef loaf and egg).
damn! my notes doesn't work.. my password has expired... mails were coming in and i got no idea what were those might be.. an urgent and very important report is needed? a call for a meeting? etc.. and im right my other boss needed a summary report ASAP. i had to fix things up and battled with my reports for two hours... wow! what more was that after i had submitted my report... my colleagues call for very important meeting.. waaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.. im dead! so i had to run over to the conference room and kill some time discussing some stuff... had prepare an exam... and administer them afterwards... my was concluded with a come back to my favorite Online RP Games - Ragnarok Online... (it was free ehehehehe.. i had not played RO since i transfer here in Cebu, Philippines for a better work. damn! i miss a lot of it)... i forgot to have dinner.. so i got home and cooked.. eheheh it was past 10:30 already damn! im so hungry... but while waiting for my food, me and my friend watch BLEACH (very good ANIME.. ehehhe).. until i had to eat and wash-up and hit the bed.... it was 10 minutes before my Big Day.

talking mind


Recently my MIND talks, and it suddenly take control of my hands, and my fingers just click on farrahs avatar and start typing what it want to say:

areman: genki desu ka
farrahbabe08: huh?
areman: it's not updated... ur blogs..
farrahbabe08: ah..
farrahbabe08: na busy ko sa work
areman: i tot the there's no busy word in your vocabulary??
areman: funny.. you've been bzzzz...
areman: ??????? how come???
areman: in my world things were always bzzz...
areman: i only got a sukushi time do my stuff..
areman: in your world you've got the luxury of time..
areman: you can do what you want to do ..
areman: u can eat.. play.. sleep.. and work..
areman: you were never bounded by the time which we follow to guide our everyday activities..
areman: what for is time??
areman: what was it's purpose..
areman: purpose???? hmmmm...
areman: they say everything has a purpose on this earth..
areman: most of the wises men i knew believes in it..
areman: i just dont know if they knew their purpose...
areman: hmm... they were talking of ones purpose... telling others that this is your purpose in life so you should do this and do that...
areman: how did they know a person's purpose? were they the one who set it up??
areman: or were they just pretending to knew it and dictating one's persons life to follow a path that is not in conformity with the persons own longings??
areman: how did this happen??
areman: in my planet.. these were just fleeting things that doesn't matter at all...
areman: heheh.. na i just don't think of it.. but sometimes our minds just work on its own, doing amazing and unusual things.. which the person sometimes cannot comprehend...
farrahbabe08: are u ok?
areman: definitely that's one mystery of a person's fucking damn shit mind...
farrahbabe08: hehehe
farrahbabe08: sometimes sucking the marrow of life does makes it seem more confusing

areman: it's unbelievable that it could generate a lot of energy that further leads to discovery of new ideas and understanding that sometimes conformed with the society and most of the times complicates things which were doing fine in the course of the time they were living..
areman: am i talking nonsense here?? is it me or just my mind talking??
farrahbabe08: i dont know..
areman: my mind talks?? how come?? does it has a mouth??
areman: does it has the tounge to utter things which should not be uttered??
areman: im the one in control here!
areman: and why does it orders my fingers to type what it wants to say??
areman: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
areman: im not in control of myself......
areman: help..
areman: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh
farrahbabe08: are u sure ok ra ka?
areman: stop it fingers ... stop it..
areman: damn! it wont stop...
farrahbabe08: wala ka nakadrugs?
areman: ehehhe... it's my fingers...
areman: i want to stop it but my mind is controlling it...
areman: hai!
areman: <----- loser!
areman: ehehe..
areman: hi ping!
areman: it's me... talyo..
areman: it's my mind who was talking to you kanina..
areman: finally i was able to subdue it.. ehehhe
areman: musta na po kayo??
areman: got a sexy pix there ha??
areman: bzzz???
areman: oh.. my mind is right... your place is new to the word 'bz'..
areman: that's why you keep yourself bzz...
areman: oh well.. had to work also.. my time is up..
areman: tnx for listening...
areman: honto arigatou!
areman: ki o tsukete kudasai!
farrahbabe08's status is now "Available". (7/19/2005 2:55 PM)